“You need to pray,” she said. “Set your alarm,” she said.
So I did. I set an alarm on my phone. For a 552. For the next two weeks.
I am doing it. I will make it. Life is just that, life. We have to learn to take life on life’s terms. Resentments have to go by the wayside. I am learning to forgive, I am learning to get over it, and I am learning to pray.
You don’t know what a 552 is? On page 552 of the 4th volume of the “Big Book”, you will find these words.
‘If you have resentment you want to be free of, if you will pray for the person or thing that you resent, you will be free. If you will ask in prayer for everything you want for yourself to be given to them, you will be free. Ask for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, and you will be free. Even when you don’t really want it for them and your prayers are only words and you don’t mean it, go ahead and do it anyway. Do it everyday for two weeks, and you will find you have come to mean it and to want it for them, and you will realize that where you used to feel bitterness and resentment and hatred, you now feel compassionate, understanding and love.’
It worked for me then, and it has worked for me many times since, and it will work for me every time I am willing to work it. Sometimes I have to ask first for the willingness, but it always comes. And because it works for me, it will work for all of us. As another great man says, ‘The only real freedom a human being can ever know is doing what you ought to do because you want to do it.'”