It’s that time again. Time for us to go out with the old and in with the new. time for smiles, love, and laughter.
I stopped last night to think about all that has happened over the past year, and I couldn’t help but smile. I am truly blessed to have the life I do and to be surrounded with such wonderful people.My life is truly wonderful.
So here’s to a look back over 2012…… I moved in to a home with the most wonderful man in the world, I spent the beginning of the year planning for a beautiful wedding, I continued with my education, continued my employment at the DA’s office, made “grown-up” decisions, MARRIED the most wonderful man in the world, flew to Puerto Rico for a week, My beloved little man turned two, I was fortunate to host a state wide conference for an anonymous group of young folks, I began a side job making the world classy one pearl at a time(Serene Antiquities), I grew closer with friends and family, turned another year older, turned 3 in sobriety years, grew a garden with my hubby, and kept flowers alive for longer than a week. There were MILLIONS of other amazing moments in this past year, but we would be here forever and you would get bored 🙂 so, I’ll stop there.
I catch myself complaining a lot, but in all honesty, I have NOTHING to complain about. My life is beautiful and it grows more everyday as do I. I can’t imagine my life without my wonderful support system and my family. I am truly blessed. I will be ending this year with an attitude of gratitude. I couldn’t think of a better way.
I am almost there folks! As of tomorrow evening I will be one semester away from graduation.
Sure. I know what you’re thinking. “She’s 27 and just now graduating college with an Associate’s degree?”
Well, technically 2 degrees and a certificate. You see, I hit a few bumps in the road and had some major growing up to do along the way. I have had several majors throughout my college career as well! Music, Art, radiology, addiction therapist, are just a few. Believe it or not, I could go to school for another year and probably get at least two more but after this whole full-time wife/mother/employee/student deal I have been doing for the past 2 years, I am OVER it.
I will say, however, I am extremely proud of myself. 4 years ago, I did not care about classes or sticking to a schedule, I couldn’t keep a job, and dang sure would have never pictured myself as a mother. I have come a long way. So, next May I am walking across that stage, picking up my diploma and kissing the school world goodbye. At least for now.
I truly surprise myself sometimes though. Never in a million years would I have thought I would be going back to school for a degree that I never finished,(Plus one more) Let alone the fact that I would actually be working IN the District Attorney’s Office. Life is beautiful now. I have my Shitty rougher days… but I always come out learning something, or wake up the next morning with an attitude that I am going to conquer the world. I am a very lucky lady with a wonderful supportive family. I count myself as blessed, even if I don’t always admit it.
In the end, I guess the point I am trying to get across in all the ramble is that I am extremely grateful that I was afforded the opportunity to start fresh and more importantly finish what I started. Life is good.
One of my friends on Facebook had this title as their status and I found it quite hilarious!
This has been a beautiful day! Quite possibly the best birthday ever. I had a little time to myself today ( I know, crazy right?!) and I realized something. I have the most AMAZING people in my life. From my parents, hubby and children to my coworkers, friends and strangers. That’s right. Strangers. I had the most interesting conversations with people I have never met before in my life.
What was different from people I see any other day, you ask? Well, let me share. Today, I took half a day off of work. I decided to be selfish (it’s a personal defect of mine that comes out sometimes) and take some time for myself and justslow down! I know! Huge concept right? Seriously though, I have been so busy with work, school(getting ready for
Exams), home and all the animals that live there (that explanation is for another day), being a mother, and just trying to keep myself alive in all of the craziness. So, today as I walked out into the world when I left work, I stopped myself and told myself, “self, you are going to slow down, smile, and enjoy this day.” and I did just that! Instead of rushing around, I talked to the person next to me in line. Instead of rushing through the door, I held it open for the next person coming in. I went to see several friends just because I could. I slowed down. It was beautiful.
Perspective is a beautiful thing. If you stop and intentionally proceed with a smile on your face and in good spirits, you are guaranteed to have the best day of your life and I did just that. This 27th year of my life I have promised myself that I will allow nothing but beautiful days full of gratitude. What if we could all stop and change our perspective? The world would be an amazing place to live. I have so much to be grateful for, sometimes I just have to stop and remind myself.
This is the Lux de Ville Black and Red “Cruiser” and it make me all giddy inside.
But, even better is the “Lucky Me” in Leopard…. It makes my heart go pitter patter.
Ya know…. my Birthday is Friday. It would make me feel a little less miserable about being yet another year older if one of these beauties were delivered to my door!
But really, these bags are beautiful (and I hate to just call it a “bag” because it deserves such a higher standard.) Le sigh… One day I will win the lottery and buy all of the little pin-ups and rock-a-billys pretty little Lux de Ville bags. Until then, just dream and drool along with me.
This is my kid, and he is awesome. I am the weird one for sure. My little two year old is so innocent and loving and trusting. The way he sees things makes my heart light up. I wish I could still see things like he does. But, alas I am no longer the innocent soul I once was. I was just sitting here thinking about how we all started out being just as innocent as he is. I once only worried about my next door neighbor, Bubba, knocking over my sand castle. Then, all I worried about was the school play. Next, it was on to the fashion and being into the “in crowd”. On to the grades and what I thought were the pressures of the world in high school. Would I make the team? Would I have something to do on Friday night? Why wasn’t I pretty/skinny/cool enough?
I never thought about the fact that my parents were footing the bill. Free house, free clothes, no bills… aaaahhhh no bills. I rushed through the easy times in life yearning to be an adult. My own rules. My own choices. If only I knew then what I know now… Hindsight, right?
Don’t get me wrong, I have an amazing life, a wonderful husband, a beautiful child, two beautiful children by marriage, a JOB, a roof over my head and anything we Americans need for securities. (or at least what we feel is secure..you know, the necessities…) But, I’ll be honest with ya’, sometimes I wish I could go back. Slow down. Take my time, and still have my knowledge of today. I know I would do a million plus one things differently.
We all grew up, and most of us made it to the real word with a good head on our shoulders. We all have families now. I wish I could freeze my innocent child and keep him small forever. It scares me to think that he will not always be the way he is now. He will grow up. He will learn. He will make mistakes, and hopefully learn from them. Am I the only one who wishes to shield my child from this scary thing we call life? Because that’s exactly what it is. Scary. Insecure and scary. I guess life is all about choices and pathways, losing your innocence and gaining experience, and working through this world one day at a time. I just hope and pray that I can steer our children in the right direction so that they may not make the same mistakes that lie in their pathways as we did. Scary. So, so, very scary
Around my house, we love music. I am a classically trained pianist and Beethoven is god when it comes to classical music. My opinion of course, however I am sure that many other would agree. I mean, I love Beethoven so much, I had his portrait tattooed on me. I would consider him an idol at the VERY least. Hudson loves classical music, and I can only hope that one day he learns to play piano, or viola, or the oboe, or to be a world famous conductor….. too much? Okay, we will stick with the basics. Really, he can do whatever he pleases, but I am not saying that I won’t send him towards the right direction.
Ignore my fat ass. I still had a lot of baby weight. 6.5 months later. oy…
It is proven that children who are involved in music are much better in math and problem solving skills. You can read here on the correlation between Math and music in children.
So, not ONLY did Beethoven bring us some of the most beautiful, soothing, serendipitous music ever, but he also brought up math grades across the nation. Simple math. Check it. Here is his biography on the Wiki.
This is the portrait I have tattooed
So while you are giving thanks this week with your family, speak up and say you are grateful for Beethoven, because he changed the world.
Plus, he had a pretty signature….
Better than mine.. Since I have become a Franklin, I cannot find a signature of perfection and it truly bothers me.
My goal with this blog is to offend everyone in the world at least once with my words… so no one has a reason to have a heightened sense of themselves. We are all ignorant, we are all found wanting, we are all bad people sometimes.