“You need to pray,” she said. “Set your alarm,” she said.
So I did. I set an alarm on my phone. For a 552. For the next two weeks.
I am doing it. I will make it. Life is just that, life. We have to learn to take life on life’s terms. Resentments have to go by the wayside. I am learning to forgive, I am learning to get over it, and I am learning to pray.
You don’t know what a 552 is? On page 552 of the 4th volume of the “Big Book”, you will find these words.
‘If you have resentment you want to be free of, if you will pray for the person or thing that you resent, you will be free. If you will ask in prayer for everything you want for yourself to be given to them, you will be free. Ask for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, and you will be free. Even when you don’t really want it for them and your prayers are only words and you don’t mean it, go ahead and do it anyway. Do it everyday for two weeks, and you will find you have come to mean it and to want it for them, and you will realize that where you used to feel bitterness and resentment and hatred, you now feel compassionate, understanding and love.’
It worked for me then, and it has worked for me many times since, and it will work for me every time I am willing to work it. Sometimes I have to ask first for the willingness, but it always comes. And because it works for me, it will work for all of us. As another great man says, ‘The only real freedom a human being can ever know is doing what you ought to do because you want to do it.'”
So, my adorable little munchkin is talking. And by talking I mean he never shuts up. Which I LOVE. It’s interesting to see how a two year old’s brain works. I don’t know about you, but I don’t remember a word I said when I was two.
The Hudster and I were out in the yard feeding the animals and I pinched my finger in the gate letting out a yelp. This was when his newly learned grammar skills came into play. I know he meant well, but meaning to say “what’s the matter mommy?” He instead says “what’s your problem mommy?” Haha I couldn’t help but laugh. He didn’t understand and I tried to explain, but it just didn’t make a lick of sense to him. He will more than likely continue to use his little words the wrong way and I will continue to get a little chuckle.
These are the days I have to cherish as a mom. Even if my kid sounds like a jerk when his sentences come out wrong. 😉
It’s that time again. Time for us to go out with the old and in with the new. time for smiles, love, and laughter.
I stopped last night to think about all that has happened over the past year, and I couldn’t help but smile. I am truly blessed to have the life I do and to be surrounded with such wonderful people.My life is truly wonderful.
So here’s to a look back over 2012…… I moved in to a home with the most wonderful man in the world, I spent the beginning of the year planning for a beautiful wedding, I continued with my education, continued my employment at the DA’s office, made “grown-up” decisions, MARRIED the most wonderful man in the world, flew to Puerto Rico for a week, My beloved little man turned two, I was fortunate to host a state wide conference for an anonymous group of young folks, I began a side job making the world classy one pearl at a time(Serene Antiquities), I grew closer with friends and family, turned another year older, turned 3 in sobriety years, grew a garden with my hubby, and kept flowers alive for longer than a week. There were MILLIONS of other amazing moments in this past year, but we would be here forever and you would get bored 🙂 so, I’ll stop there.
I catch myself complaining a lot, but in all honesty, I have NOTHING to complain about. My life is beautiful and it grows more everyday as do I. I can’t imagine my life without my wonderful support system and my family. I am truly blessed. I will be ending this year with an attitude of gratitude. I couldn’t think of a better way.
One of my friends on Facebook had this title as their status and I found it quite hilarious!
This has been a beautiful day! Quite possibly the best birthday ever. I had a little time to myself today ( I know, crazy right?!) and I realized something. I have the most AMAZING people in my life. From my parents, hubby and children to my coworkers, friends and strangers. That’s right. Strangers. I had the most interesting conversations with people I have never met before in my life.
What was different from people I see any other day, you ask? Well, let me share. Today, I took half a day off of work. I decided to be selfish (it’s a personal defect of mine that comes out sometimes) and take some time for myself and justslow down! I know! Huge concept right? Seriously though, I have been so busy with work, school(getting ready for
Exams), home and all the animals that live there (that explanation is for another day), being a mother, and just trying to keep myself alive in all of the craziness. So, today as I walked out into the world when I left work, I stopped myself and told myself, “self, you are going to slow down, smile, and enjoy this day.” and I did just that! Instead of rushing around, I talked to the person next to me in line. Instead of rushing through the door, I held it open for the next person coming in. I went to see several friends just because I could. I slowed down. It was beautiful.
Perspective is a beautiful thing. If you stop and intentionally proceed with a smile on your face and in good spirits, you are guaranteed to have the best day of your life and I did just that. This 27th year of my life I have promised myself that I will allow nothing but beautiful days full of gratitude. What if we could all stop and change our perspective? The world would be an amazing place to live. I have so much to be grateful for, sometimes I just have to stop and remind myself.
My goal with this blog is to offend everyone in the world at least once with my words… so no one has a reason to have a heightened sense of themselves. We are all ignorant, we are all found wanting, we are all bad people sometimes.